Worst Weekend Ever

Selamat malam…

Well, not much I wanted to say today about my worst weekend since I’m dating with Mr. X….

I know I texted rude words in the afternoon, something like “You don’t have to come” or such. But in the end I said “Did I text you like that?” I think it’s enough for clue that I’m kidding and I still wanted him to come…

Actually I suffered from sore throat since yesterday and I lost my voice. It’s painful and annoying. I hope that meeting with him would help cheer me up a bit and of course I did ask him to bring some medicine.

But today… until 8 PM he didn’t show up once. Being live in some kind of dorm like this, of course in the weekend all my friends are out to eat together or goin on date with their boy/girlfriend.

I’m hungry… I really didn’t eat anything since yesterday night. Yesterday I didn’t eat since my throat was so painful that I decided to only drink hot tea and went to sleep earlier. This day since he planned to eat pizza with me as dinner, I didn’t eat anything since morning because I thought that I’ll eat a lot.

When the sky goes dark and he didn’t come after all (without giving me any text or call of course) I burst into cry so much. Since I was very hungry but still has hope for him to come, I went on myself to the small shop in front of the gang to buy my favourite tea, despite it’s raining.

Yeah, it feels so lonely… And you know? Crying with sore throat is… something. It’s painful and hard to breathe, but I can’t help it but to cry since I’m so depressed about it.

Maybe I’ll sleep earlier this night too… My body’s a bit feverish..

Medical School x Love Life = ?

Konnichiwa, minna….

I’m so depressed today, hehehee…. I got one red mark in my OSCE test so I have to repeat this station tomorrow. I got only 50 for Pathological Anatomy (cell injury and death) station, with other stations score in A region lols. This is so annoying, last time I have to repeat the block of Growth and Development because I only miss 1 point in my test score (you pass if you got minimum score 0f 70, I got 69, crap…). Now I got another remedial test and I have to cancel my plan to go back to my home in Jakarta after Growth and Development remedial…

Yesterday, I got message from my friend, telling that today there’ll be an extra lesson for those who have to repeat the OSCE test at 8 AM. So I got up and hurried to the campus, but after I arrived, my friends told me that today’s extra lesson is only for those who failed at the station of Vital Signs and Radiology…. Crap… So I went to the campus for nothing?!

In the same time, my boyfriend is in the theater room. Today he attends a ceremony with his friends from the same year and will officially become an Intern. Last time, he asked me with tears whether I would like to come and take a photo of him wearing the white coat. I already finished at around 9 AM, so I decided to wait until he’s finished with the ceremony…

….which takes time until around 1 PM….

That time I’m on panicked state because I forgot to get a laboratory coat from the seniors, so I’m on danger of being kicked out from the test tomorrow (well, all of of the seniors coat has already lent to my friends, lols).

And then he came… awwww,,, so shining so brightly with taht white coat that I want to disappear from this world >__< too cool and handsome kyaaa~

…Buuuutttt, he forgot the promise to take a photo with me.. .___. I’m kinda, how to say it… I’m annoyed and angry. I came because he asked me to come and take photo with him. But then he forgot about the photo and start panicking about his matters. Yeah, I know he got a lot of matter. But can you see that I have my own personal matter (T__T ) ?!?!?! If it’s not because of you I already gone  home earlier and started to study or searching for laboratory coat!!!

*sigh

Guess I need a little bit rest now… and started studying when I get up….

**** you…. (T___T ) =3=

It begins….

Konbanwa minna-san ^^

Today I’ve got a day off because today is a special religional holiday according to the Balinese calendar…. I forgot tho what they’re celebrate today, duh >,<

So.. I’ve just got a message from my boyfriend that he’ll be on the emergency department (if I not wrong) of Sanglah Hospital to do research around a week…. and during that period of time he get 3 days of night shift, which starts at 9 PM until 8 AM in the next day. (‘___’ )

And it’s just give me a “punch”. lols. xP I’ve just realize that it’s starting now, the days when we’ll not able to meet or see each other because of our business. A doctor will-be, clinical clerk, he will have insufficient sleep time and go home rarely. He will probably prefer going home and sleep rather then go on date or see me at my place xP hehe…

But, I already know it since the second block of the 1st semester…. the time when I’ve just realized that I like him….

“We won’t be able too see each other when he stops going to Campus and work in the hospital…”

“We can be together as long as he still doing his elective study…..”

“I don’t want Porsehipp2012 come to its end…. I still want to spend times with him…”

“So he’s ‘graduate’ already from the press community? I still want to work with you….”

Those things slip of my mind past few months ago. Hehe. But, hey… I will be busy with my campus works too that I maybe will not have time too, times fly so fast when you’re busy with your work ne? So I think the best way to handle my feeling of loneliness later is too make myself busy, helping him as much as I could…. and keep waiting for the time we work together in the hospital someday…. ^_^

Let’s do our best!

To love or to…..

Konbanwa minnasaaann…. gosh! It’s already this late neee? >__<

Aaah lately i overthink too much, and sometimes the sentences from my favourite jdorama in my school days are rebounding in my head…. Well, it’s a very good quotation ne…..

“Do you love me? Or you just want to fuck me?” – Gakko ja oshiararenai-

I guess my problem is also faced by many teenager in this world…. You see, i fell in love with this boy who then later become my boyfriend… He’s such a nice and gentle one… And it’s obvious, when you fall in love with someone,  you want him to be the last, rite? Our parents have known each other and they didn’t interfere with our relationship, which means if I have to marry with him in this short time I think they would agree with it…..

Problems, I still in my first year of medical school,means that I have about 4 years until I graduate… my boyfriend is in the 4th year, 1 year until he graduate…. It’s still a very long time for me if I want to be by his side for my entire life….

And… we, or mayb just me, got stuck…. I think I have overdone something? No, we didn’t have sex yet, but MAYBE it will happen if this continues on…if both of us couldn’t control it. Thing is that we’ve just stared our relationship around 2 month ago, such a short time ne… n in asian culture, virginity is a golden rule for all premarital women, which makes me sometimes come into fear… what will happen? I’m scared… can I trust you? I love you….

My boyfriend said to not taking it seriously whenever I talk about the future when I graduate….

Is that mean that he’s not serious into me?

Hahahahaa, hey i want to trust him…. really, i love him…. What should I do? Honestly from my experience seeing many of my friend relationship, this kind of relationship didn’t last long…. But obviously, i want us to not ended up until then. Hoping for your current bf to be the last, isn’t t normal for all girls?

I want to trust him…. but judging from what he do, can I trust him? What should I do,,,,,, heheheheheee…..

Please take care of me until the time comes, honey!

Sayonara.. Latdas!!!!

Konbanwa minna-saann~

Wah udah lama juga ga nulis blog yah… duh blog riviu teater jeketi belom dibikin lagi zzzz…… lagi pingin nulis2 aja sih..

Yak, setelah berkelahi dengan berbagai macam tugas KIH yang banyak di antaranya bikin gua berantem sama mister x juga, akhirnya tibalah hari penentuan di mana orang-orang yang pantas boleh tinggal sementara yang nggak silahkan out. Dan hari penentuan tersebut gue masih di jakarta ngeheheheheheee~ Yah gua emang ikutan latdas juga ogah2an sih.. kaya hidup segan mati tak mau. Dan akhirnya juga gue ngeliatnya kayanya gua nggak cocok di sana. Lol. Gua bukan tipe anak rajin,,, dan gua merasa apa yah…. interest gua juga kurang kegali, jadi gua mualese puol dah buat ikutan. Ditambah lagi temen gua juga agak tidak kooperatif sehingga gua jadi males parah buat ngelanjutin… Yah meskipun begitu berkat kecerewetan dari mister x akhirnya gua ikutin juga dah semuanya sampe begadang2 bikin esai mueheheheheheee~

So? Hmmmm……. ngeehhhhhhh… jadi sebelum latdas ini anak2 disuruh bayar 240k ke suryawan (koordinator calon anggota di kelas gue) n kalo misalnya nggak lulus bakal dibalikin. Yaudah pikir gua nggak ada prasyarat lain ya gua bayar lah. Eh ternyata ada syarat nilai minimal yaudalah gua pikir pasti nggak lolos…

Dan ternyata gua beneran nggak lolos lol xP

Jadi… BANZAAIII!!! Anjir gua bahagia sumpah terlepas dari beban yang menyebalkan dan sukses bikin gue berantem sama mister x. Well, emang dunia gua bukan di situ… lols… mau apa dikate xP gua juga ga berharap lebih dari absensi gua selama ini kok muehehehehehehee……

Tapi yah.. kalo dibilang sayang emang sedikit sayang  sih. How to say it…..

Ada sedikit gengsi yang melekat aja.. mungkin karena mister x. Yappari, memang dibanding dia gua bukan apa2… still, I can’t explain this to him… I am nothing. Just a stupid naughty girl who only do what she likes xP heheheheeee….. Yah mau apa dikatalah (‘___’ ) cari aja organisasi lain hehehee…. Next try is daftar di HMKU, bagian mading lagi cari “penerus” katanya mueheheheheeee……. Ayo semangat nacchi…

 

Betewe ujian blok sel gua lulus yeiii berarti bisa liburan tepat waktuu \(^_^)/

 

yeiiyeiiyeiiiI~

Jejak Awan Pesawat (Hikoukigumo)

Konnichiwa ^^

Another JKT48’s new cover song: Hikoukigumo, means “vapor trail” atau jejak awan pesawat in Indonesia… Performed yesterday in Indonesian TV Station….

And from the video I tried to write down the lyrics (‘___’ ) andd~ here we are ^^ Sorry if I make some mistakes >.< Your comments and critics are welcome~ Enjoy

Jejak Awan Pesawat

Di antara musim gugur dan dingin, kita bersama

Berniat mengambil jalan pintas

Menggunakan belokan masa depan dan kebaikan

Dan juga melupakan sang angin

 

Sayonara, kau bisikkan

Ekpresimu saat itu

Bersinar terang, tapi tak sampai

Cinta itu kan layu dan gugur

 

Jejak pesawat yang di langit

Garis putih lurus memanjang

Perasaan siapa yang masih ada

Tanpa mampu menoleh ke belakang

Jejak pesawat suatu waktu

Seperti cakar tajam menusuk

Meninggalkan bekas tipis luka baru

Dengan tatapan kosong diriku memandang

 

Kucing yang lewat entah dari mana, kita bersama

Melihat kita seperti apa

Ranting dicoreti oleh anak-anak jalanan aspal

Melangkahi semua kenangan

 

Suatu tempat, kita berdua

Mungkin kan bertemu lagi

Karena kita tetap kenangan

Terlalu banyak orang-orang

 

Cinta itu jejak pesawat

Satu gores kuas yang tipis

Ke hari kita pada dapat kembali

Dengan sedih tak dapat melangkah laju

Seperti jejak awan pesawat

Tetap sembunyikan air mata

Jauh aku letakkan tangan kanan

Dirimu yang telah meninggalkan kesedihan

 

Jejak pesawat yang di langit

Garis putih lurus memanjang

Perasaan siapa yang masih ada

Tanpa mampu menoleh ke belakang

Jejak awan pesawat cinta

Bagai mengejarnya dari belakang

Walau sedih terlambat mendengarnya

Suatu saat di langit dengan tangisan

Jejak awan pesawat

Tetap sembunyikan air mata

Jauh aku rentangkan, tangan kanan

Dirimu yang telah meninggalkan kesedihan

Wowowowowowowowowow

Aaaaaa

 

Namida supuraisu!

KOnnichiwa!!!

So, yesterday there’s a live from JKT48’s theater that was aired in Dahsyat (a music program at RCTI TV Station in Indonesia). There’s a new song being brought there and it was…. NAMIDA SURPRISE!! ^^ So? Here’s the video and the lyrics…..!! It’s still the short version though…. enjoy! (source: Secret group)

Saat bel p’lajaran terakhir berbunyi

Seketika matamu kami tutup dulu

Belum sempat bicara tarik tangannya

Bawa ke aula olahraga

Gundah kumenanti ku di biarkan berdiri

Begitu saja Disebelah tiang basket

Saat ditanya apa mau kalian

Jangan jawab buat dia risau

Teman sekelas semua berkumpul

Dan mempersiapkan diam-diam

Silahkan melepas penutup matanya

Itu pertanda ayo semuanya~

Tariklah kreker nya…

Three, Two, One, Go!

 

Heeppii Heeppii Basudei

Lilin yang di atas kue nya

Sekali tiup matikan semuanya

Ayo kita pesta hanya untuk dirimu

Heeppii Heeppii Basudei

Rencana telah berhasil

Ulang tahun mu sudah pasti diingat

Kawan-kawan semua sebanyak ini bernyanyi untukmu

Di pipi mu ada Namida Sapuraisu

 

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday dear my friend..

Happy Birthday to you~

 

Heeppii Heeppii Basudei

Kami ucap Good Luck untuk mu

Serentak ucapkanlah selamat yaah~

Dengan sepenuh cinta selamat yaah~

Heeppii Heeppii Basudei

Kami ucap Good Luck untuk mu

Ayo peluk erat selamat yaah~

Terakhir skali lagi selamat yaah~

 

SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN!

Wota (?)

Konbanwa!

So minna-san, do you know the word of wota? (‘__’ ) well, how to say it… wota is an idol otaku. Means that you are very crazy about a person (a Japanese idol) and you usually would do anything for your idol. For some reason, they don’t want to be called wota by the others. Hence, whether a person is a normal fans or can be catgorized as a wota, it’s still in a gray area.

So yeah, there’s this person (‘___’ ), well, *cough* my boyfriend who tends to be a wota (although he keep saying that he’s not a wota but cmooonn, he’s totally a wota!! (-____-“) ) bought an AKB CD for both me and him (yeah, I’m an AKB Fans too…). He’s a real fans of Kimoto Kanon from SKE48 and since Kanon got quite a position in AKB’s latest single, Eien Pressure, I think he has big expectation in winning Kanon’s bonus sashin in the CD package…

So yeah, in the same day with the CD come to his house, I’ve got a work to do in campus, making a revision for my school’s magazine (I’m part of design division in medical faculty’s press community), it takes two hours non stop in front of computer and with a full concentration. When it’s all over, I felt so tired that I barely can walk home alone…

And when I’m home I found him… kinda boastin about his new CD =3= I’m kind of…. irritated..

How to say it? All of my friend said that I would match so much with my boyfriend since we have same hobby, idoling (my friends even say that we’re a wota couple, but I’m rejecting the nickname since I think I can’t categorized as a wota yet xP). I said to them, yeah since I have the same hobbies I can tolerate how my boyfriend so attach to the idols, well, since I am the same…

But it’s a lie if you never got jealous towards your boyfriend’s oshimen…

Just, in time like this….. somehow maybe because of my tiredness I become so jealous with my boyfriend’s idol… Lol, just hug me already and give a support to me pleaseee TT^TT I know I’m kinda egoist to say this hahahaa…. yeah, me such a stupid girl…..

But isn’t it normal? (‘__’ ) and this is my first work too in the press community TT^TT please praise me~

ehehehee….. guess I need a rest.. a bit….